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I watched the movie,  Fireproof, with my husband, my daughter, and her boyfriend.
Because I'm such an emotional basket case, the expected result was tears, and much thought into wanting a marriage that could survive anything, and wishing that my husband cared as much about our marriage as Kurt Cameron did in the movie.

Now, I have always been an incurable romantic, so I thought, somehow, magically, my husband would see this movie and be moved to say, 'hey, let's do the Love Dare'.  Did he?  Nope.  So there goes all my romantic ideas for a fairy tale ending right out the window.

Well, now I am contemplating doing Love Dare on my own.  Why, because I think our marriage could be better and perhaps, in the words of my son, I might get to know myself better and realize it isn't my husband's problem, but mine.

God has already restored my marriage once, as I said yesterday, but I guess it wasn't to my specifications!!  (My thoughts are not your thoughts, My ways are higher than your ways)  Have I already learned I am selfish.  Much to my chagrin, my son pointed that out to me very bluntly.

When I say contemplating, it means just that.  I think, in reality, I am afraid of what the dare is going to ask me to do for my spouse, and frankly, that kind of scares me into thinking I might have to do something out of my comfort zone.  That's why I haven't started yet.  I do know Day 1 will be fairly easy, because I try never to say anything that may hurt someone.  I still can hear my mother's voice saying, 'if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all'.